I'm a human being. An awkward one, but still a human.

"To err is human"

How many times have you heard this sh*tty, annoying, boring quote ? YES WE KNOW.

Or rather : I KNOW I DO A LOT OF MISTAKES AND I'M ACTING REALLY WEIRD IN PUBLIC.

Yes.

I do.

Out of topic but I like this GIF.

   I don't know about you, but I'm one of these persons (or maybe I'm the only one, you tell me) that get anxious about doing literally anything in public, for example when I'm at school, shopping, at the restaurant, basically wherever there is a lot of people I don't know. So I wanted to talk about how it can be hard to do something, because you have zero confidence and you feel like everyone is going to watch you and judge your doing, which will obviously be weird/uncorrect or whatsoever. I wish I could be like these persons who can do anything that seems risky - meaning if they fail doing that, they will look ridiculous - but do them anyway in an easy, soft, pretty, classy, elegant way ! Like these girls who just come to class while listening to some music on their phone THAT IS IN THEIR POCKET AND THEIR HEADPHONES NEVER FALL OR GET ENTANGLED IN THEIR HAIR. How ?!! And they just sit calmly, with this neutral face and their freaking gorgeous nails which are obviously beige-polished. Yes. Exactly. I just can't help but not being able to do that okay. I don't know why. I have long curly hair, I move a lot, so everything kind of falls apart. Or also, when I am in the amphitheater, waiting for the lecture to start, but people arrive so I have to move to the middle so they can sit, I just can't help but look awfully ridiculous while taking all of my things - my bag, my pencil box, my books, my coat, my scarf, my phone... - to the next available sit. But apparently, people get to do that in a normal, easy and elegant way again. And I always think "Why can't I be for ONCE just LIKE THEM ? Classy, elegant, (not anxious), calm,,,,,.....?".

That might be me watching them coming in.

So I tell my friends and family about this problem, when they say "Why don't you do that/go there ?" and I respond "But they are all going to make fun of me and watch me and only me and judge me annnnndjufyxrg". And I know their answer is the right one :

1- Nobody cares. Actually, no one gives a single damn sh*t about you in public. OR they also have the same problem that I have.

(That also may be you reading this post)

2- Yes, it's true, to err is human, and we're f*cking human beings. If we think about it, we're just a stupid muscles/bones/ligaments/etc biped structure that has the ability to think. And that's all. Yes, sometimes we skid, sometimes we fall, sometimes we can't find a really-quickly-needed thing in our bag (all the time), sometimes we spit when talking to someone, sometimes we even burp or fart, or our stomach decides to show itself by making some weird noises. At least, it shows that you are alive. Yup. You are not a freaking wax statue at Madame Tussauds, and we have to stop believing actors/actress or just celebrities in general never make mistakes, never fall, skid, spit, burp, fart, are clumsy as hell. (They just have to hold back these "nasty habits" when they are in public because you know why.)

Yep. Those are a little extreme though.

3- Actually, it kind of concludes the first two points. Don't be anxious, there's no need to stress out about going shopping and fearing that other girls will be annoyed by the fact that you're here, looking for new clothes and underwears. So yes, nobody cares, but first all, we don't have to stress out about that before, because there is actually no need to be paranoid by the fact that the saleswoman might judge you or think you're acting weird in her store, or that you take too long to take your wallet out of your purse, etc. It's her job. She is there for you, and most of the time if you do your part - being polite and respectful -, they will be really kind and understanding. 

Totally.

   So if you're, like me, stressed out  a l l   t h e   f r e a k i n g   t i m e  and you feel like you accomplished an enormous thing when you congratulate yourself for not doing anything socially-awkward for once, remember that you're simply human. We just need to calm those nerves, take a big breathe and go for it like "I don't f*cking care." even if it's just for walking into the classroom, going shopping or ordering food.

Yes, well this is because nobody's "normal". Normal doesn't exist (sorry for suddenly sounding really cheesy but it's the TRUTH). Famous people want you to think that they have the best manners, the best way to do this or that, that what they do is right. People that you see at school who copy them simply don't get the thing. You do you, chill a little bit, relax and life is going to be alright. I am one of those girls who always thinks "Should I stay this awkward/funny/dorky girl or should I try to stop making mistakes so that I look more serious, elegant, classy ?". Yes you read "stop making mistakes". Yup. Stupid. *auto-slap* Just stay who you are, but be a less stressed version of yourself. "Being cool" doesn't mean what people want you to think what it means, aka "popular, trendy, fancy" etcetcetc ; NO. It just means you, and being the best version of yourself. Simply. If you want to get that classy look, go for it by having your own clothing/makeup style. But don't try to stop yourself from "making mistakes" - I know it's going to sound way too cheesy again - because we learn from them. And mistakes are the best way to go on and to look back at yourself with a smile like "aaah I like this little me who thought that she could do that but in fact no... that is funny".

Be yourself! Be cool! Be a human being!

A little thing about why I didn't write for such a long time :

   I wanted to talk about it and apologize. I know I post on a really irregular basis, but this time it was way too long. Simply because I fell sick a lot during this period, and then came finals. In my university, we take finals BEFORE and AFTER Christmas break so I have been studying for a really, really, really long time and had no other way but to reduce my breaks and entertaining moments. I thought about writing a post on my experience with a roommate and what it feels like to have one and also one about Christmas DIY's. But, for the first post with the roommate experience, I didn't feel like writing it in the end, and for the second one, I thought it was not original AT ALL and that there were Christmas DIY's basically everywhere on Youtube, Blogger, Pinterest, Tumblr, Facebook... So yeah. That's why I haven't been posting for so long. I hope it is okay, and there are still some people remaining even though we were already a very few at the beginning ahah.

   And ALSO : quite a big "fact", but I'm still thinking of making videos on Youtube that will deal with this kind of topic, more and more. The thing is I'm not quite ready yet, and I also kind of don't have the right equipment to do so. I've been saving money to buy myself a MackBook Air, and I may buy it this summer or next summer (everything depends on how much money I'll have left at the end of the academic year and also because I had first planned on saving money for travelling, as I want to spend one year as en exchange student in a university in Great Britain). And talking about travelling and this, yes, I do want to go abroad, in the United Kingdom particularly. And I think that would be the right time to start Youtube videos to talk about my experience there. But first of all, I need to be accepted to study abroad hahah! It's all going to happen next year, and if I pass, I will leave for September 2017 ! :)

Have a lovely day/week/month/YEAR OMG YES HAPPY NEW YEAR BY THE WAY HAHAHAHAH <3